It's all good..

A man is getting into the shower just as his wife is toweling off, when the doorbell rings. After arguing over which one should answer the door, the wife gives ...up, quickly wraps herself in her towel, and runs downstairs. 

It’s Bob, their next-door neighbor. Before she can say a word, Bob says, "I'll give you $800 to drop that towel." After thinking for a moment, the woman drops her towel and stands naked in front of him. 

After looking her up and down, Bob hands her $800 and leaves.
Confused, but excited about her good fortune, the woman retrieves her towel and goes back upstairs. 

Her husband shouts from the shower, "Who was that?"
“Bob from next door
"Great!" the husband says. "Did he give you the $800 he owes me?"
 
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Angie, you were so real, girl. Now you have gone..

Te amo, siempre

There is no point waiting for a reply to words that are not heard..

When you no longer see the hawk overhead, it has either found somewhere to land or has fallen from the sky..

God times, Bad times

My search for a lost love has finally ended. I know where she is , but she is still with a guy she married back in '84. Selfishly, I was hoping that she would be single, but that is not the case. It is time to finally put my feelings to rest. Had I been able to find her between 1979 and 1983, the outcome would have been very different. I would have ensured that it was..

In the meantime, I have been diagnosed with Osteoporosis, and have a very painful compression fracture in my lower spine. Time appears to be running out for me, and still I haven't found anybody to whom I am willing to give heart and soul like I did back when I was eighteen years old.

Ambivalence to living or dying remains. If somebody was to tell me tomorrow would be my last day, it would pass over me with any feeling at all other than the fact that I never found my true love..  

The desire to die..

.. is returning, and after months of not smoking, I have re-started. I don't have a reason in my life to do otherwise, only a dream that I might be able to find a corner someplace where I can curl up with 'my love, my lover'.

I have a nephew who looks up to me for my strength. Maybe one day soon, I will let him see this blog, and he will stop seeing me as the ultimate tower of strength, and find his own course and cause. For now, I will try to support him as best I can even though I am struggling to support myself..

There is also a grand-daughter who looks up to me. She is absolutely the best, and will find her way without me, will have to do that.

I wish them all the best.. now and forever.. 

If..

If you love someone, set them free. If they come back they’re yours; if they don’t they never were.

Attributed to Richard Bach, author of 'Jonathon Livingston Seagull, but you will NEVER find these words in that book or any other by Richard Bach.

The above fact doesn't make the statement any less true..

Hanni, more than ever I need that light.. 

When

WHEN

When the world looks dark all around you
 All you need is love, I know
 All your doubts and fears will disappear
 And turn into song

 When the night light shines from your window
 You'll remember all I've said
 And your heart will feel
 That sudden beat setting you a goal ???

 Please come back to my arms
 I need all your love tonight

 When the clouds have gone
 You will see me
 Can you turn your love my way
 I want you to love me
 Every minute of the day

 Please come back to my arms
 I need all your love tonight

 When the clouds have gone
 You will see me
 Can you turn your love my way
 I want you to love me
 Every minute of the day
 Won't you say you will

 (Dave Clark / Lenny Davidson)