When you no longer see the hawk overhead, it has either found somewhere to land or has fallen from the sky..

God times, Bad times

My search for a lost love has finally ended. I know where she is , but she is still with a guy she married back in '84. Selfishly, I was hoping that she would be single, but that is not the case. It is time to finally put my feelings to rest. Had I been able to find her between 1979 and 1983, the outcome would have been very different. I would have ensured that it was..

In the meantime, I have been diagnosed with Osteoporosis, and have a very painful compression fracture in my lower spine. Time appears to be running out for me, and still I haven't found anybody to whom I am willing to give heart and soul like I did back when I was eighteen years old.

Ambivalence to living or dying remains. If somebody was to tell me tomorrow would be my last day, it would pass over me with any feeling at all other than the fact that I never found my true love..